Life could always be worse…..

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Now that I’ve gotten that out of the way….I will tell you about the story. It’s about this young boy(Dexter) about the age of fourteen who has decided that when he gets older he wants the material wealth in life. Perfect well paying job, high class friends, popular hangouts, beautiful wife, and most of all the ability to gloat. He no longer just wanted to be associated with the wealthy people and the “glittery” things, he wanted the “glittery things” himself.

 You see, he “started off” as a caddy. Basically everyday he would day dream about the “perfect” life and how he would be the one golfing and rubbing his wealth in peoples faces. So he quit his caddying job so he could live his dream….but really the main reason is this little, wealthy girl(judy) made him feel inferior. She was younger than him and yet she had the ability to boss him around…..the really rubbed him the wrong way…..

Off he went to college. He learned the ‘tricks of the trade’ so to speak. At the age of twenty three, he bought a partnership in a laundry. Since he became so well known and he was so reliable in the laundry(he didn’t shrink the woolen golf-stockings) by they age of twenty seven he owned the largest string of laundries in his area of the country.

But at the age of twenty three, he was already living his dream…..kinda. He was wealthy, he was hanging with the “in” crowd, he was going to the popular places, and he had the ability to gloat. What he didn’t have yet was a trophy wife.

By pure luck, the little girl(Judy) who set his dreams into motion was thrown back into his life. And he fell in “love.”…..I believe it was in “lust” more than in “love”. But back to what I was saying. Basically this girl-now woman- was the forbidden fruit. The thing he liked to taste but the thing he couldn’t or mustn’t have. But he did have her. For awhile that is. But she was just using him to make herself feel better…..Cause I think she had low-self esteem……because ego is a sure sign of self esteem issues.

After she was done using him, she threw him away like a boring toy. Finally after the last time he decided to get engaged to a stable person(Irene)…..she didn’t have that fire…that passion that Judy just oozed with. And out of the blue, Judy walked into his life yet again…and destroyed everything for him and Irene.

Judy went off and married a man that was as bad as she and gave her a dose of her own medicine. This slowly took a toll on her and she ended up letting herself go. When Dexter heard news of this he felt like he lost something. And in the end he only could pity himself….no one else.

“Long ago,” he said, “long ago, there was something in me, but now that thing is gone. Now that thing is gone, that thing is gone. I cannot cry. I cannot care. That thing will come back no more.”

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This girl-boy situation really reminded me of the off and on again thing between me and a guy…..after i read this I’ve realized i’m being a Dexter……..how sad and or lame is that……so yeah….i’m going to think harder about personal relationships from now on…..