May 28 2008
A letter to Review the Year
Dear Mr. Sheehy,
This has been my favorite English class, the friendly atmosohere, the caring people…..man I sound like a commercial for some cafe or something…*snickers*…..but anyway seriously I’ve enjoyed this class….I wasn’t restricted from writting the way I write(with the morbid and totally unhappy stories) I couldn’t be shy and untalking in this class, everyone had to talk atleast once…..And when I finally got out of my shell man did I talk……With a bleak outlook on life and on the characters of human kind none-the-less, but still I talked…And that makes me really happy…because I used to be that little girl in the corner of the room, too shy to even say her name…..I would shakily stand up, the floor seeming to shake underneath my feet…..And my voice would quiver when I would say, “h-hi, I’m-I’m J-j-j-jasmine.” then I’d crumble back to my chair and remain quiet for the rest of the class…..This class has really helped me grow. Thank you.
This year to me was very very c-r-a-double p-y……..Alot of family issues have been going on……Like to the point where I feel I can’t it anymore and just want to curl up in a ball until all this is over…..You see, this and last year have been major lesson learning years……and also this and last year made me quiet the cynic, or “emo” as Emily likes to call me…..I learned that I really can’t trust people….and many people have other motives, they are only good if it’d do them good too(at least in my life thats how it is), and I learned not to let people walk over me(well thats a good thing….but the rest isn’t)…….You see, (remember that Blog 3 thing for Crucible….the “friend” was me) for this whole year I’ve been fighting with inner battles so huge and destructive, that I’m surprised I made it this far……But I’m a survivor and a winner…..So I will not let this beat me…..I’m going to beat this…..I have a right to happiness and I’m not gonna let my mom, my brother, my stepfather, or my family take that happiness away away longer. I’m done with it…..I’m not their easy target to blame anymore……I don’t deserve that…..I know better than that…..I didn’t ruin the family, I didn’t do anything that warrants the hell they are putting me through…….I love them, don’t get me wrong…..I just so tired of the emotional hell they are putting me through……Well sorry for that rant…..I needed to get it off my chest……thank you…… Have a good summer and Thank you for all the help(even though you probably didn’t know you helped)….
sincerely,
Jasmine Jade
One response so far
Thank you for sharing yourself with me and with your classmates. You have much to offer those around you. May you find joy and peace along your journey.